Cupcakes

It's funny to me that although I have been majorly lacking in catching up on the blog- this is what I choose to write about. I am missing the child that is supposed to be in our family. Wherever this little girl is, she is not here. And that breaks my heart. It breaks my heart because whatever she is going through right now IS.NOT.GOOD. And it is hard to not be doing what is so close to God's own heart. I loved the safety of knowing I was doing what he wanted. It was hard. Not the loving of the child. But the dealing with of many people I'd rather not have to ever talk to or have interfere with my day. But that is part of loving the child.
There were days and times I almost couldn't take it. And a break has been good and it was needed. Again, not from the sweet girl God blessed us with, but from dealing with fostering junk. All ministry has junk, I have learned. And that was the junk we had to deal with. But it gets heavy and hard to manage. But it hasn't taken long for me to be ready to be right back in it- junk and all. I'd rather not have another day of junk, but I want even more to be loving on a child that needs to be loved on.